what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger

I beg to differ with that statement. I've been through a lot in my life, and by a lot, I mean more than you think you know. And as for that statement, I've learnt things and I've probably become a better person. I've made more right choices than wrong. I find that I make myself just accept things even though I don't want to and I'm just fine because I have to be. So I think that statement is a lie. I think as one experiences more negative things in their life, a part of them dies inside, but on the outside they are perceived as strong.

This has got me thinking ever since the death of my friend, and inside I felt almost nothing, like a part of me DID die, but I act like it's all okay because I have to. Life has to go on whether you like it or not, and you just have to deal with it even through the most painful of times. <3

finding a job

Finding a job is tres difficult at the moment. And not just any plain old job, a job that suits me. I just want to be happy in doing what I want and I can't seem to find it here. I've been searching high and low, ever since summer started and even before that. But I can't see myself doing a lot of the things. Maybe I need to be less picky. Going to school and getting my diploma has made me feel like I'm qualified to do a lot, but at the same time, employers want experience and knowledge which is understandable. But how will I get the experience without working!? Ugh. So the job hunt begins....All the better to move away...<3

what is style!?

I was interviewed today for someone's paper report on style and they asked me how I would define MY style. That was probably one of the hardest personal question someone has asked me. I would have to say I'm honestly a little bit of everything. Overall, I'm kind of indie chic, but when I feel like it I can dress sexy or cute, but I also have a little bit of snowboarder and rocker in me?! I don't know, does that even make sense? I love almost every style and I just mix it all together. It's probably one of the most difficult questions because a lot of the time, people have a defined style. But I guess that's what makes us each unique! <3

is the past really the past?

So I've been thinking and using my past as my issue for committing now. But as last week was a rough week and we got in an argument he asked me a question: don't you want to change? I was so shocked that he said that. Of course I want to change but at the same time I am what I am, take me or leave me. Right? No one truly know what has happened to me in my past to make me to the way I am. They just think they do, and people do in general. I'm always about living for now and not living in your past, but I think that the past has made you into who you are today. Whether its good or bad I'm not sure and it's a difficult question. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong. I'm not saying he's right or wrong. If you want to change that's your choice but it takes time because a lot of the time the past opens up wounds. <3

what's the skinny?

Is this hot?

Celebrities like it or not are big fashion influencers. It seems that body image is such a big thing in today's society. We tend to copy our favourite celebs in today's society and watch what they do. I do thing that staying healthy and being at the appropriate weight is a good plan, but to the point where you can see every bone on a persons body? This is such a big issue for girls and has been for several years. Its so sad that society in general makes fun of larger people. But at least we are starting to accept the fact that curvy is in. No boy wants to hug a bag of bones and frankly, I'm so sick of turning pages to see size 00 girls and there are so many anorexic pages. Why are people so twisted to think that this could even be sexy. I think it's more revolting and makes my hands go soft thinking of it.

I don't know, for me I like to be thin and a moderate size because fashion is a large party of my life. Therefore, I like staying my size to fit into clothing so there aren't bulges in any of the clothes I wear. I just think that eating healthy and exercising are such important parts to life.

A few people in my life are anorexic and this changes their whole approach in the way they think and their personalities in general, because when one starves themselves, they change. Eating disorders are creating awareness lately just like breast cancer as it is a huge factor in today's society. Yeah we hear of it, but until we actually know someone with an eating disorder, it's not the same. <3

realization: Olivia x Leighton

Call me crazy, but watching the two shows tonight I realized that Olivia Palermo from The City and Leighton Meester from Gossip Girl look very alike. Even their personalities perhaps? Am I wrong? I think Leighton Meester is prettier but I think their both gorgeous. <3

The City Finale

If you don't want to know what happened, don't read on!

So, today was the finale of the show. Wow, I'm so proud of Whitney for not going back to Jay. That took a lot of strength and courage considering she was so attached to him before. I love seeing independent women doing their thing and not depending on a guy. I also love DVF's advice. I love her! As for Allie, wow just because a guy says baby I love you does not mean you should run back. Ah. When will girls learn. And for Olivia, yes I agree that she would step on anyone's feet to get where she wants to be but fashion is a dog eat dog world and a lot of people in the industry are like that. I'm not saying that it's right but it's just a fact. I think she's gorgeous though!

Anyhow, we're officially moving onto The Hills now! It's the last season! <3

twiggy look alike?

I'm really liking Nicole Richie's latest look and style. She has a whole charismatic, hippie, vintage look. I've found this picture of her which looks pretty much like Twiggy. Weird! People love to hate on Nicole Richie, but I like her so be it! <3

you think only gang wars happen in movies?

There's been tons of shootings lately in the Vancouver and Tri-City area. It's really scary actually. The news all started with the Bacon Brothers who caused lots of ruckus as they are in a gang. The Red Scorpions I think? I don't really know cuz I'm not into the whole gang thing and I definitely do not know their names. In fact, one of the Bacon brothers, Jonathan Bacon lived in the same apartment building as my friend, but he got evicted. The scary part is that it was not too far away from where I live. Anyhow, it's been tearing up the news headlines and has been extremely scary. I think since January there has been about 20 something gun shootings resulting in death. I hate having to hear about what the world is coming to today. Why is there so much fighting? I mean is it really necessary? I just think it's really sad that so many people both innocent and not die because of these gangs issues. It feels like you only see and hear about these issues happening in movies, but no. It's really real as it's happening right before our eyes. It's affecting everyone, not just the ones involved in the issue. What is the world coming to?!

good thing i don't like beer!

This is sooo true! Hilarious! Click to enlarge. <3

let's play a love game

I found this and found it to relate and whey it is the way I am.

See the problem with relationships In general is that it's always a game In the beginning they'll do anything to have you And once they do it's never the same And I, know everyone out there can relate So the question is..

One: do I really wanna trust this feeling
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by
Three: do you think it's only superficial
Four: could it actually be different this time

<3

sometimes i wish i lived in the 60s

I love seeing the era of fashion change right before us, but I love the whole hippie era, the carefree make love not war attitude. Rocking the headbands and just grooving to the music. I just love it all. Check out twiggy to the left. She's rockin the head band and the boots. Hmm.. look familiar? Haha. Even now, the whole tassle thing is coming back. So.. Peace, Love and Unity. <3

how fast is too fast?

How do we really know how fast is too fast? I'm asking you, because really, I have no clue. Getting deeper and deeper in a relationship is determined at your own pace, but it's hard not to get really caught up in one another. I think it also depends on the passion in the relationship. To others, your relationship may be too fast, but to you the world is spinning and no one else is in it. So who really knows? I think as long as you're comfortable with what you guys are, everything will be okay. Right? I don't really know myself and I'm trying to determine it for myself. I hate those girls who completely ditch their friends for boyfriends as they get more caught up in a relationship. I just think it's a bad thing to do because I've been at the other end of it and its not fun. Yet at the same time, you true friends would understand right?! This situation just gets that much more complicated. So as long as you are sane and find Mr. Right, I think it's okay to fall in love. No matter how fast or slow. <3